November 2 2018

I've been asked to live  a good note to my family.

So here it is I am alive, my face hurts, my Rx eye hurts but c'est la vie that is this is what you get when you are at my age.


I feel an old man

BTW what will be the result of the midterm election?

I guess hope for the best and prepare for the worst.

Sincerely
Giuseppe Rossi

Thursday December 7

Only for today and only for today I am trapped in this place. Last time I was here it was last September. It will  a while for me to get here again. I simply do not like it at all.


I have been asked to come here, while they conduct their business at the apartment.


The most important activity at CNS is to read the newspaper of the day.

In my opinion it is  a declining media there is nothing for it to do about this fact. It lags behind the fact of the world.

Personally I enjoy reading the Economist magazine, it is a weekly publication and it is  writing about a lot of subjects.

There is a lot of  geopolitical matter. It comes with a delay of a week. In my opinion  this delay allows  to digest the news rather than bounce  out of the latest happening.


It is clearly a magazine that tries to offer facts over politic, it does include the whole worlds.


I am at the clinic for only today and today only.  Jolanta wanted me to get in the pool.

It is actually a cold day and beside I do not like to get wet here at the clinic...

Today's temperature is 12 Celsius or 53 Fahrenheit.

Perfect temperature to get wet dear CNS

There is no way I will get in the pool with this temperature. Final answer.

Friday Sept 22

I have been out of commission for long time.

As I  woke up my head had been hurting.


So  I did not feel like coming at the clinic.

I was OK, I had been busy otherwise.

Cooking writing to the family and so forth.


When I am in pain it is best this way.

Today I am here at the clinic and later I am going to get a TAC on Stockdale Avenue at the Quest Imaging center in town.


Finally the appointment has been scheduled. After a consultation with   Dr. Elvie  my Case Manager has agreed to the procedure. I will be going to undergo MRI  procedure to my head to check on the status on my shunt. After reading the Website I  believe I will be doing an MRI rather than an X ray SCAN. Anyway it will be what it will be.

Today I was given personal money by my IPC. This includes a one a month money to be managed by myself. It includes haircuts, personal shopping and extra money above the $75 for food.

Considering that in average I have been spending $90 per week on food this money is a welcome support.

It comes at the right time as I am normally a healthy and good eater.

Healthy breakfast for today.

Flower for today ... great subject for my phone to take a picture of.

My day started really poorly as always with an acute pain to main Rx eye, where my shunt in located.

As instructed by Dr Elvie I asked for Tylenol..

It removed the edges away yet this leaves me a lingering pain to my Rx  upper temple.

The other day I have been cooking pomodori alla Romana 

I used heirloom tomatoes Basmati rice garlic and basil

I emptied the tomatoes in a bowl and added herbs and garlic

I used the mixer to carefully mixing  the juice.

I used a colander to make sure the seeds were separated from the juice

Here is the juice

Then I washed the Jasmine white  rice.

Here is the staffing getting ready.

Olive Oil, salt, pepper, garlic and basil 

I mixed with the rice and left it in the fridge  for 40 minute

I used to for staffing the Heirloom tomatoes  and cooked it  in the oven.

The rice is soaked in the tomatoes juice  for an hour and then used for staffing the tomatoes. It get all cooked   for 40 minutes

Here is the results after roasting the tomatoes for a while

Yesterday evening I compiled  my grocery shopping list, talked to Anna my IPC and went to the gym.

It is hard to know how to dress or what to buy nowadays given the fact the weather is changing so abruptly without any correlation to the next days.

I had bodycombact with Scott and then Zumba with Suze.

I walked over there by myself and then I came back with CNS transportation as it was already dark.

While waiting at the gym I chatted with Kayla Nicole at the front desk.

She was the one to recommend me to call transportation as it was dark.

I am used to bring stickers for her daughter who is five years old.

She appreciated it.

I was feeling cold the other day so I made a healthy lentils soup.

I washed  carrots, celery stalks  and potatoes first.

I sliced  all with garlic cloves next.

I used a few bay leaves ( foglie di Alloro) for the broth

I washed the lentils with a fine mesh colander under running water

First I made a nice soffritto, then added the lentils and some water with the bay leaves.

I adjusted the salt used a bouillon cube. It looked all good.

The other day  Wednesday Sept 20 I had a conversation with my Case Manager Jolanta and Dr Elvie one of the neurologist at the clinic.

I had been reporting for the whole month episodes of pain located in my Rx eye, shunts and Rx face.

It got so bad I had not been able to come to the clinic for long time.

I logged all the days I have been having my head hurting and filled a whole paper for Nursing.

While having headache I was taking note of my pressure reading. Normal apparently quite normal.

It is hard to get going in the morning for me because of my head hurting.

Once up and running I am fine.

I prefer the environment at the apartment rather that the one here at the clinic.

Over there I have my own facilities. I have my own restroom wile at the clinic there are only two restrooms for about thirty plus patients. Some of them are on wheelchairs so it takes longer for them to use the restroom. They are not fast turn over place, sort of speak.

The TV is always on in this place... I do not understand  why  but apparently this is the America way of doing Rehabilitation ...

Omnipresent TV ... 

I am personally and absolutely appalled by this place....

Once in a while is OK. Not that often however...

Activity... keeping with web site... perfectly useless 

As everything that happens at the clinic

My observations of course and my experience

Tuesday August 29

Terrible headache again, the right eyes and were my shunt wire is located.

That's it as Nursing told me repeatedly.

For the rest of my life I will have this pain in my head...

thanks God for allowing this to happen to me.

The actual reality is that  every morning that I woke up it returns to me.

Before I did not give a cents to the religious card at all.

 Right now I will keep not giving much importance to this matter. In fact it is all part of a large superstition.

It is called opium populi for nothing.

Largely people go to church on Sunday because they are caught in a large superstition. They believe that something bad is going to happen were they to skip Sunday church.

Well the reality is that nothing happens at all. This is part of  a large superstition.

I have not gone there for long time and will not get there for ever.

As right now I am feeling that I am done with any time of affiliation or religious attitude.

I am pissed and also very very distant from all the sermon and stories that are telling over there.

Yesterday I woke up with a bad head ache

Nevertheless Yesterday I went to the gym of course.

I had Yoga first and then cycle with Misty.

It was her last day because she is going to be on  maternity leave.

She has a huge belly and I am frankly surprised she was able to ride until yesterday.

Before living I snapped a picture and people at the gym had a smile.

Some of them do not give a dam about it they are superior.

Some of them consider me a daring person.

Everybody over there have never been at CNS nor they have seen what I am seeing here at CNS.

They live in a bubble.

Anyway Misty  place is going to be taken by a  different person. I know who she is going to be.

Anyway no forecast yet..

The same headache  I had today and  the same that I will have tomorrow and the next day and the next day for the rest of my ridiculous life. 

Because my life has turned into a very painful experience.

So god you understand why I am very pissed at you.

So doctors you understand why I have come to the conclusion that you are a ridiculous bunch of people, unable to deliver a decent  service...  

By the way I have let everybody reading this blog, no more closed only to people that only have a gmail but open to any engine to anyway that as a browser and is able to read it ...and  to read the words I am writing. 

Heavy words I understand...so let it be this way.

Screw everything.

This is the results of the pain I am feeling ...

The Enrichement center is a place I am done for a while... there is a bunch of TV and confusion I can not stand .

A place I do not like at all.

There are huge TVs turned for lunch, insufficient bathrooms number.

And then you call it a bloody Clinic dear CNS?

This is not a bad days, it is a bloody nightmare.

It is an absolute  place to be with a lot of demeaning brainless activity.

CNS is proud of it... Well I have my own place to be.

Screw CNS and screw their new Rehabilitation Center.

As I told screw the Homes of Hope I am telling screw CNS .

I can cook and go to the gym . It is hot nowadays but hey there is a limit for everything.... dear CNS.

I am taken to the gym with a patients always and she is not coming to CNS here ...

You have  crossed that thin line in my opinion (BTW I am editing my language to keep it clean)

Who is the person below?

She is my mother Marta.

This picture was taken in Fano where she has been vacationing at the beach.

I had to crop it to her face because of all the prudish attitude  that American people have.

Originally it was a picture of her at the beach wearing a sea side attire a simple that is a swimsuit

Well as a results of the prudish attitude of the American people I cropped it  and framed only her face.

Monday August 28

Already is the medical history for my shunt


Today I had a bad headache and the right temple is hurting. I put together my self and I came here anyway.


Over the weekend.

Last Sunday My shunt really gave me a lot of pain. Sabrina came to check me.

My right eyes bulb was hurting.It felt like something were to wist inside my right upper eyes bulb.


I went to the gym at 1:30pm with Eisha.

I measured my weight last Sunday. It is 179lb at the gym using an analog weigh scale. I crossed reference it with the digital scale I have at my apartment.

It is 178.6 on the digital..

At the gym I chatted with George.


He is Johanna's husband. She use to work at CNS. And she is Stephanie's sister. They both used to be NRS at CNS.

1) Leg curl @4
2) Leg Extension @3
3) Leg press @4
4) Chest press @4
5) Shoulder press @ 4
6) compound row @3
7) seated row @2
8) shoulder press @ 2
9)crunch 30lb
10)rotary torso 30lb
11) lateral rise 35lb


Last Saturday August 26 I did my grocery shopping. Which is fine.

I spent $85.50. It is a good improvement as CNS is giving me $75.

Jamie was always there with her crew of kind people.

I like the place over there.

Based on my experience the people at CNS should train at Trader Joe's to learn about true customer service.

HOWEVER the driver of the van Veronica left me outside in the eat with no AC.

Now as a result my shunt had a fall back.

Of course Veronica is keeping her job and me I have to learn to put up with this service

I just spoke with Vanessa my nurse have a post injury headache. My shunt is a foreign object in my head. I will have recurring headache and feel pain to my head on a regular basis for the rest of my life.

I have received a letter from my mother from Fano.


It contains some old memories

I am the little one on the right

I feel some time it is good to be unaware of what will happen to you.

You see in this picture I already had my AVM planted in my brain.

I have been carrying it with me all this time.

This is my grandparent  and my grandmother family in Fano Pesaro

This is even an older picture. I assume it is from the side of my grandfather's family which I never got to know. In Fano as well

Keep it clean

Sawing my short's bottom that got loose over the weekend

The basil is my apartment is getting really big

I am watering it twice a day given the overwhelming heat.

I made pasta alle zucchine.

I started from dicing the Zucchini very carefully

I made a light soffritto

I cooked the zucchine in a pan

Flavoring with spices

The pasta cooked al dente

I added some feta cheese

I mixed it all together and got an OK meal.

This time I did not like it that much

It is filling up on the cheap.

Thursday August 24

Auch!

My head and my eye.. strong pain in my right eye.

Like the past days I have been disabled by a large pain located in my right eye.

It is a  long running issue for me, the result of my brain injury.

It  gets really bad when I stand. Jolanta understands and she allows me to seat in a chair while my brain is getting better. I read the newspapers and let my blood pressure stabilize.

Over the past days my head was really bad so I stayed back 

Beside I cut my finger in cleaning the apartment. So I was not in a good condition.

Here what it looked like

Here what it looks like today.

Luckily I cut my left hand rather than the right hand.

There is a silver lining on anything.

My family in Italy do not understand this matter.

My brother wrote to me: it  happens when you clean your house.

No comment...let's move on that it is better.

I took care of cleaning the whole apartment, cooking and I went to the gym of course.

Cooking Rissotto allo Zafferrano (Safran) and polpette

As I was staying back I cleaned the apartment

Of course I took care of my own cleaning as always.

The bathrooms carefully cleaned

The living room and the floor over there so much dust in Bakersfield.

Here is the living room after cleaning.

The chairs have been carefully cleaned from the dust.

Today Money management. I am set to get only grocery shopping money.

Only food no other outing of any sort. Being here is already a purgatory like experience.

I am sure I have done a lot of bad things to deserve this treatment.

As always I feel very confident and congruent with these choices of mine no more church in Bakersfield. where the service is rather unreliable and the company... oh well  is what it is.

BTW yesterday at the gym cycle and body pump always with Cassie. 

A good cardio for me.

I came back with Alea and CNS.

Actually the van took a long road as I was driven first with the guys at Cattlerock house.

They have a staff available 24 hours a day.

Rick, Bryan and Mr J. were coming back from a weekend in S. Barbara.

Of course I was driven back by the NRS Alea who first took me to the house...then finally to the CNS apartments on Gosford. I   checked in at 7:36pm 

That simple change of routine had the effect of making my head huring today.

Writing to the boys of course.

Headache... I need to deal with it or CNS is going to deal with it at some point in my life?

Cleaning and more cleaning.. 

It shows I do not like the dust in Bakersfield's hair.

It shows I am taking care of the apartment of CNS.

It shows house keeping is not invited not to do anything over there.

Here is a little bit of an historical growth chart for Facebook.

Rather a phenomenal increase. Just the way you like to see in a businesss

By the way let's talk about Revenue.

It has been pulling in between $7 Billion and $9.3 Billion for the last four quarter.

Obviously the Advertising business accounts for close to 99% of the  revenue

At CNS I do eat my food, I rather gobble down without tasting, standing because there is no place to seat other than next to other patients... so I stand next to a counter.. my choice... I simply do not like CNS at all. 

They are egregiously paid for what they are doing, don not get me wrong.

They have four different clinics in the country, it shows this business is florid and they know how to grow it.

The fact is that the clinic in Bakersfield is overcrowded and clearly under served.

For instance, this clinic has only two bathrooms for everybody.

There is a rush to the bathroom, before lunch and right after lunch to brush the teeth.

These are fancy restroom, as you know, with fancy faucet appliance.

The hand drier that blows hair is integrated with the soap dispenser and the water sink.

Very fancy. I wonder how long it will last for.

I can not take the so called clinic any longer.

Their prosopopea their stupid and brainless activity.

Me I am to read the news paper everyday among the general lack of interest.

Oh the Horoscope is really what gets the guys here going.

Utterly stupid and utterly based on autosuggestion. Obviously you want to read on the newspapers how many starts you have, because based on the surrounding I would say there are no stars in the sky of Bakersfield.