Friday January 22 Friday

Happy birthday Simona and Marta, It is your day to be what you would like to be

Today  I had a good granola with yogurt. I did not feel opening a new container of milk.

I am definitely doing it tomorrow.

In my mind Simona is a contender for the Oscar.

She is a resilient and strong person.

Yesterday our youngest son Lapo lost another front tooth.

The tooth fairy was duly activated.

 She got him $10. This  is a standard set by my mother in law Anna.

Our little son perfectly knows who to ask for  the tooth fairy...

Yesterday evening I stayed back at the apartment rather than going to the gym.

I carefully prepared my grocery list. 

As I stayed back I  did a lot of activities.

I wrote a letter to my family. This is good for my eye-hand coordination and for my fine motor skills.

The letter was written in English and block letter as it is customary for the boys.

Our sons read English and thus far block letter is fine. 

At home we speak Italian as well. The boys do speak English for their life in the community.

As I  made time for my family  I spent the day at the apartment with the above activity.

Among it I have been  cooking.

I made vegetable soup and baked a sweet potato. 

I diced the onion, celery, carrot and potatoes.  Added lentils and white beans. I cooked with water and bouillon broth cube.

Finally I added Olive Oil and Parmesan Cheese.

Additionally  I  cooked on  a separate pan some Basmati rice.

 I used a different pan to cook it so to keep it separate from the main soup.

It is a way to avoid for the rice to absorb all the soup liquid.

I spent my time cooking and writing both activities I enjoy very much.

Lupita came to check on me and snapped the following picture of me with my white apron.

After dinner I cleaned everything by hand and let it dry in the dishwasher.

My mom sent me back a modified picture of the drawing I had prepared for Simona

The drawing below is in its original format except for the S. Valentino 2016 writing.

The one below has been modified by my mom Marta.

She did a a good job. I like it very much. The heart is blending with the flowers.

Yesterday Chicco and Lapo had a belt test at Taekwondo. They passed it and  got the next belt.

Chicco has one more stripe on his black belt.

Lapo 's belt is called Bandon

The boys are clearly advancing on their capabilities in life.

Time to wash my hand.

I am eating at AAC today. 

I had a good sandwich with ham, cheese, salad, tomatoes slices and a bit of mayonnaise.

A drink and a bag of Doritos completed my lunch. It is a Friday and we all enjoy the Friday day.

As a result of eating here I am bringing back my lunch pal full. Dinner is already ready for today.

I feel I need some updated reading glasses. 

The far sighted one are doing a good job. 

Today I sent an email to my Case Manager Jolanta, my IPC Jesus, to Simona and Amanda in order to activate the procedure for new reading glasses.

I washed my reading glasses, cleaned all the accumulated spots and dusts.

 I can see better trough the lenses.

Both Simona and Jolanta agreed with me looking into getting a new frame and lenses.

I guess Jesus needs to be on board as well, he is the Programming Coordinator of many other patients. I am part of his team as well.

Regarding the glasses Simona mentioned it will be the latest pair of a long string of glasses I got throughout the years.

Believe me I would like to be able to go without my glasses. Yet I can't see without them.

Simona surrender and relinquished: do what you want I do not care. 

Her brother was calling her from Europe for her birthday.

Sincerely

Giuseppe

Thursday January 21 Home of Hope posting

Today at 10 am I went to the Home of Hope with Miss Amanda.





It is a facility for foster Parent and family in need.

It is currently run by Dr. Mr. Kelby.

He is Amanda's husband.

Today it is John's  birthday. So we all chanted him Happy Birthday.

He got great looking gifts




A couple of sleek Shirts.




The place is a great environment for me to be.

Over there I started working on the computer doing some work. It is a start to be in the environment.

We had lunch and a small celebration.

This morning  I had my Money Management completed.

I took care of a few items in the apartment, helped around at the apartment at my bests. The way I appreciate doing.

I walked in the park and got ready for my work day at the AAC.

Simona is attending a faculty meeting today at Caltech.
She is a very busy lady.


Yesterday evening I went to the gym
I had cycle with Cassie

Afterward I had body pump with Sylvia.

I focused on repetion, range of motion and overall on being fit.

At the gym Andrew came into the exercise room.

I had a chance to greet him and wish him a good day.

Andrew is a good friend of Mr Priceless.

This morning this is my train of  thoughts:

Looking back at my family I believe I made hard choices.

 They were not worth the loss of my family's  time, its precious   moments, the  unique opportunities of my sons.
I regret losing my sons youth, their initial moments, losing  Lapo's birth and so on.
Looking back right now it has not been worth it, I regret it all. Yet at the time I was making these choices believing  they were the right ones for me. Lost in my own believes of working hard.

What is done is done yet I have realized the full impact of these hard choices on my family. They got the full impact.

Simona was able to make it work one way or the other anyway.

She is still the one that is encouraging me to leave with it and be in peace with these choices.

What is done is done. At time it is easier said that done..

Yet what can be changed? 

Not much.. I am trying to change my future for which I have control of.

I am trying to change strongly the direction of the future with my family and for my family.

It is the best way I can do right now. I  am writing to them as much as I can I am trying to get back to have a connections with my two sons.

With Chicco -10- our eldest it is easier. Lapo - 6- our younger he is the one that has blurred memory of me being just me. Lapo is always Lapo.

I love you all.

Giuseppe

Wednesday January 20 2016

I am feeling much better. I slept better last night. I wake up at 6am as I  set my alarm clock for it.

Chilling out, stepping back, regrouping and rethinking

I  found this interesting chart on the web.

It is about the Serenity prayer.

I like to post it first things today to remind me to  have Serenity, Courage and Wisdom.

Yesterday I spent my afternoon cooking.

I cooked sliced eggplant. I first seared in a pan.Then I put it in a plastic container. 

It is getting soaked with Olive Oil, Basil leaves and Garlic Powder. 

I also prepared Sweet Italian Sausage (Pork Meat), cooked well in the oven.

Being Pork Meat it is better being well cooked.

While I was cooking I prepared a letter for my family

As I am writing to my boys I prepared it in English and block letter.

Last Saturday  the kids had a great report card:

Our eldest Chicco has been having two A+, all  As and one B+

Our youngest Lapo is having good notes as well. He follows suit is elder brother Chicco.

My latest report card? As mentioned in my letter to the boys, I feel I had better one.

What has been done can not be changed...

We have to move on and restarting with Serenity and with a clean slate.

While I was cooking my wife Simona reminded me of a few important aspect of my own personal life.

She shook me up once more this morning to show me how to move on and how to get stronger.

It is for Simona and thank you for your love that I am here writing to you.

I had money Management done -first part of two. Today is receipt and change. I spend all the grocery - an more. The outing money are gone between the movie outing and church offering. 

I helped around as I am feeling far better...inside and outside.

Today's weather is humid. A bit of rain happened overnight. We need more water to get out of the drought that has been affecting California for the past four years.

It is a start. 

Riddle of the day: what to you call a cow with no legs? It is called a Ground Beef.. :)

My mother called me from Italy. She was worried about my earlier email of taking a seek day.

She is fine. She mentioned that she broke a vertebra of the back bone by doing an odd movement.

The doctor came and gave her a series of shots.

I had a really good lunch. Home made chicken broth with quick cook  brown rice. The rice is from Trader Joe's my favorite grocery shore. 

Where I shop healthy and always good food beside I am having always a great experience by going over there.

Finally I had an apple.

I had my food standing the while I like to eat, standing.. as I can I eat that way.

 To use the computer I am using the desk.

Enjoy

Sincerely

January 19 Tuesday post lunch.

I did not enjoy today's activities at AAC. It would have been better staying back to catch on my sleep that has recently been so disrupted..

I have a computer at the apartment and I can do my activities over there.



Amanda is always kind with me, she is always telling me what has been done is in the past stays in the past. Easier said than done.

I agree but my past is getting really heavy... my sleep is getting disrupted by all sort of accidents.

As I am the one who is at the receiving end of the stick, with my sleeping hygiene  being disrupted for one reason or another..

I am tired and sleepless for no reason other than CNS deciding to do so.

The latest incident of the inter phone is the last example of issue at the CNS apartment..

An interphone is a simple circuit. It has a speakers. there are a couple of power supplies, a few bypolar transistor (BJT) a bunch of diodes and capacitors..

When I talked this morning with Steve K. he did not care or did not want to take responsibility of the matter..Apparently he does not care enough.  Too low or little matter for his position. Clearly I am not important for him.

I understand the ones who do not care are showing their  lack of interest and lack of wiliness to take charge of a certain matter.

It will be handled appropriately in a different way.


For lunch.. I had a quick byte standing... eating standing as I  like doing. Not relevant what I had.



Enjoy the reading.. and your day. My day is getting better and better...

By the way, my former boss Lester Kozlowski mentioned he can not help me in anyway from his side. I was asking him to add me back on his web page to further explain what I used to do..

Apparently it is not doable right now, or so he said.

After all he is the boss  and he is showing it big time.  Thank you...

Perhaps one of these days he will understand  what it means to be deprived of everything.

He  will understand but  by then it might  be too late to change..


Sincerely
Giuseppe

Tuesday January 19 2016

Yesterday evening I went to the gym I had Yoga with Lilly. At the gym the usual familiar smiling faces. First of all Lee at my back. A good person I trust a lot. I will see him on Friday for Zumba with Caroline.

After Yoga I had cycle with Lolita. 

I set my bike high so that I was able to  fully extend my legs.

It is important for me to being able to do so.

At 7pm as usual it was time for me to go back to the apartment.

I got ready in time for it. I stretched before leaving and today I am fine.

Once at the apartment  my evening routine: got my evening showers,  a banana, full of potassium to refuel my body night med.

Waited until 9:30pm until CNS showed up to provide me with my Ambient med.

Overall I had a poor night. The night supervisor woke me up by calling my apartment at  5:45am

He  apologized for it.. nevertheless the damage had already been done.

Following procedure I  duly filled a complaints form for Ms L. Sanchez.

Apparently there something every night at the apartment.

One night is the neighbor, the other is the switchboard..

I perhaps should start waking up at 5am to make sure I am up and running whenever  either CNS  or neighbor decide to wake me up..

Do you call it an appropriate service? 

Breakfast is served.. do what you want self service..

At  the Mt Vernon  Clinic is a great fun. There are very kind and reassuring people.

All sort of great vocabulary is  spoken.

Had I not learnt to speak the proper English language elsewhere, I certainly would have learnt it at AAC. All sort of colorful language is used here.

Today it is a cloudy day. The Panoramic view of the park is the one below.

A steady picture with steady hand. Just scroll at the bar at the bottom of the image. To see a full image.

Enjoy the reading... 

On the other had Miss Amanda the director of AAC is always kind with me.

Seeing I was a bit crunchy this morning she provided me with  a good encouragement to  stay healthy.

I appreciated it very much,

Being able to stay with you is Priceless for anything else there is MasterCard.

I lost my MasterCard along the way. 

Sincerely

Giuseppe

The boys

The boys are growing.

Chicco's first communion at S. Bede in La Canada















Lapo some time ago with my hat still intact.
Enjoy

comparing the two forms

Dear CNS, here are two complaints forms for your record.
The first is dated October 1 2015




The second one is dated January 18 2016

Apparently you have not learned to handle your responsibilities dear CNS..

Enjoy the  reading
Sincerely
Giuseppe