Thursday March 31 2016

Yesterday I came back at the CNS apartment (I have been residing there since January 2012).


 Of course it is a temporary situation.. everybody knows it it is temporary of course.. needless to point this matter out.  Let's believe as well on  the story that dragons do fly in the sky. Let's believe as well in fairy tails..

I  cooked myself a good dinner... I learnt to take care of the apartment as if it were...a real house for me. Oh yes It is a real home. I am independent after all, I cook by myself I clean after myself, I take my own meds, I do my own grocery shopping list and take care of my well being..

I cooked Salmon with seasoning.   I used bread crumbs, spices and olive oil to cook the salmon.
My mother in law Anna recommended to use this seasoning.



As a side I prepared arugula salad, carrot and pearl tomatoes.



I talked to Amanda today.. I apologize for not wanting to go to volunteering job today.
Her husband has been so nice to me and I want to pay back his kindness as soon as possible.

She mentioned she understands and we will be catching up during the next week.

I have received the following pictures from my friends in Europe.

It is of a reunion in Paris where Marco, his wife Marie-France leave.

You can see the French flag on the background.

Alberto (in dark blue shirt) went to visit Marco, Marie-France.

The picture below is from the family of Alberto and of  his wife Ana.

They were at Cadiz for the Easter Holiday.

Last evening  I picked my schedule,  signed for the movie on Thursday and then went to the gym

It was my day for  cycle with Cassie

She told me that her grandma is relying on her dad to get things completed in the house.

After cycle I had body pump with Sylvia.

 I stayed light and did my very best. focusing on repetition and global fitness.. 

My current ambition is to stay fit and to protect my body along this process.

After my work out I was feeling great. Energized and full of good will.

Alex too me there and then at 7 pom came to pick me up.. I was ready for him

I came back to the apartment in the van with Nick.. another patient. It is a fact that I was not alone in the van.. 

Today I had money management done ( It is pay day for me)

Pay day for me is $75 for grocery and $24 for outing. 

I have been flat as a pay for a long time..needless to  point this matter out.

I walked in the park, then helped around Doug with the trash... yes I have such a good attitude I am taking the trash out most of the day,, it does not belong to me as I am taking my own, it belong to somebody else and it is left at the second floor for whoever has the heart of trowing it.

Anyway I noticed these beautiful flowers.. could not ignore their beauty..

Simona has been taking the boys to school as usual.

Yes I called this picture Nosce  Ipsum

I have never received any picture of my family spontaneously sent by them.

It is perhaps something I am not worthy of.. oh yes they are too busy to think about it..

Solidad means not having any pictures to share other than the usual ones

Imagine what you can do with the ones coming from your own family.

Mon amour this statement  is for you, you have been so unwilling to share with me anything of your day.

During lunch Marco Called me from France. He is a real friend.
He mentioned that his family is doing very well. His wife is very happy with her activity at work.
He sounded  thoughtful about his own work experience.

He told me that with his company he decided to part away with him.As a result he is going to try something new.
His company is offering him an outplacement service to use for his next move.

Marco mentioned that he already  had a couple of meetings to review the situation.

He is considering his options, he feels full of optimism about his capability.

He mentioned he does not know yet what his future will look like, yet he fells he is going to make the best about his own opportunity. He set his mind in not rushing into anything first but in taking the time to review and to consider his current and best options.

He was talking about my family. Aside  from telling him that they  alright.... we talked about Easter
Well we reviewed the Easter activity
Enjoy and good luck to you Marco  believe in yourself and stay healthy.

Wednesday March 30

Already,  I am feeling clearly I not worth of anything in life... I have not been able to get anywhere.. in the past  four years I have been relegated  to my recovery place being injured and being reminded every single instance of time that  I have  a TBI.

In my opinion It is called  stigmata if you see what it means.

Yes you get on the cross once, and you can stay in the cross for ever as all you can do is to  take this cross  and to walk with it...


I am ready to take my cross, unfortunately or fortunately this cross did not take me anywhere...


yet every day I am reminded of what the gears in my brain is doing ...

You know the whole story by now..  nightmare during the night and during the day.


Talking about my activities from yesterday,,,


It was the day for body pump with Ellie and Zumba with Mike..

At the gym the usual people of the local community, full real people.

Marnita, Debbie, Delia

Whenever I am talking to any person I am looking them straight in the eyes to make sure they make eye contact with me.


At the gym I met Miss Amani who was working out.

She is a behavioral analyst at CNS and she works with Matt.

Daisy took me to the gym and Diego came to pick me up in the middle of my happy staying..

I like   infarct too much staying away from CNS a place that I  have never personally come to like...

At the gym I purchased again some work out gloves as I had misplaced the old ones.. It shows independence and clearly wiliness to stay equipped.

I  got the cheapest ones they had, a few bucks as my family has very little money to use.

I have to be extra careful with the money.



After the gym a nice kitty came by to say hi. He reminded me  of our cat Ramon back in Italy

My breakfast... 

A healthy and nutritious self prepared breakfast.

It is a great feeling to get fulfilled on any request

Sincerely
Giuseppe

Tuesday March 29

I had a rough night last night.

I decided to stay at the apartment.

I prepared letter for my kids

I cleaned around the apartment.

I did the floors run the vacuum cleaner for the carpet and the floor.

I cleaned carefully my bathroom as well.

As I stayed back I had more than the two hours to use for cooking with the slow cooker.

I prepared chicken with Celery, potatoes, onion carrot and rosemary from the CNS garden.

It took a good couple of hours to go.

I let Amanda knows about my decision.

Simona is well she called me let me know they are going to come this Saturday  and we celebrate Lapo's birthday

I am overall OK.

I feel sleep deprived

Time to eat

Sincerely

Giuseppe

Monday March 28

Last Friday I wrote a letter to my family,  I am feeling at time so lonely that I am filling the paper with words for fear of staring at an   empty paper sheet... it needs to the filled with words as nobody is filling it otherwise... It is perhaps called "Horror Vacui" if you really understand what this means.

In the afternoon I went to see a nice movie http://mayacinemas.com/movies/my-big-fat-greek-wedding-2

I enjoyed seeing it very much. Since the movie has been moved to Friday it is one of the few movie I saw. I am feeling  I am letting my gym down. And in fact I  have been letting it down.

At the movie I had green tea and get  edamame  (Soy beam)

On Saturday I followed the usual routine that since 2011 I have been  following.

Washing all my clothes, changing the bedding, washing the bathrobe and all the item I see fit to wash.

Cappucino in the morning.. sounds really good 

I went to do grocery shopping at Trader Joe's. 

I purchase more than enough.. got flowers for Simona as well.

Whenever I going  for grocery shopping it shows my frustration that  I am channeling into spending money over there. Yes I recognized I am a highly frustrated patient at CNS... and as a result I am enjoying spending money at grocery. There is nothing wrong with this matter.

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I am purchasing anyway good food: veggie, fruit, a bit of white meat, fish, cheese..

I am very much interested in eating healthy according to my own personal taste.

Last Saturday  spent $108.44 quite a good amount for me.. anyway whenever I need extra money Ana my RTC is giving me some from my Personal Account.. so you see it is working well. 

Money in from Simona money out from me.

Simona came the afternoon to take me to La Canada to celebrate Easter 

Her flowers.

In La Canada with the other flowers.

At some point during my home visit we went to eat at Settebello pizzeria with the whole family.

It is a good pizzeria in Pasadena. We all enjoyed the food.

The kids had their fair share of pizza. As a desert they had Pizza with Nutella as well.

On Easter morning we went to church to S. Bede in La Canada.
Monseigneur Antonio officiated the Easter Mass.

The family in  Italy has been having a good Easter as well.

They have been cooking fist as they went to the Adriatic Coast.

In California we  got our coffee at the Intelligentsia coffee place in Pasadena

Electronic time is easy whenever you have a device to play with

Already let the web know I have asked again to Miss Amanda and CNS to get a written document to discuss together in an upcoming meeting.

I feel highly frustrated for all the matter that is escaping to me.. You say I am not remembering things.. perhaps it is a fact.  As such let start the action of documenting with a copy for me as well.



Yet I remember what is like to provide a  service that has been repeatedly asked  by an individual customer.

You see all, I have never had such a document nor any fulfilled request of mine about you documentation.

This document should come with a letter head from CNS, with a revision control number and all the good practice that come with a proper documentation control.

Please CNS remember that I was VP of Technical Marketing before and I know what I am talking about...

Let your record know I am feeling frustrated by the constant evasive  answer that I am having from CNS.

I have been at CNS since January 2012. I have a bunch of gear in my brain that everyday reminds me of why I am here and who I am. Hence dear CNS understand my  point of view.. every time I am taking a shower - at least twice a day- I see  the gears in my head. I am reminded of the lack information I had been given from  you.


For Easter we were invited at Bel Air. Bob and Raffaella leave there. Bob is in the red polo of this picture.

We had a very good lunch

The lunch was very pleasant and very well made.

Bob and Raffaella are having the backyard of  their house being reworked.

They removed the hot pool it used to be in this corner of the house.

They are also working on  landscaping  their garden

Simona brought a typical Italian Colomba cake for Eastern

 Enjoy
Sincerely